I have a love hate relationship with Ballet, i have been doing ballet since i was 4 years old. I have always loved the music, the beautiful costumes, everything. I have always seen ballet as a beautiful classic and elegant dance style, when i was little i always admire the big girls in my dance academy, for the recitals they used big tutus and point shoes, the point shoes where the thing that i was exited the most. Everything is easier at the beginning and keeps getting harder throughout you go forward to it, learning the dances, every move , the names of the song and exercises its very difficult, and its worse when you see the teacher as your biggest enemy, always pushing you harder to make more difficult things every time, compare you to other classmates, always making you feel less. Every time class got hard i wanted to quit but i remembered how beautiful the big girls dance with their point shoes and tutus, so i kept going, i pushed my self very hard, put in extra effort until i finally was at a level to get them, my first impression of them wasn’t that good because the first thing i had to do was sew every single ribbon onto the point shoe, it was very hard learning to sew, i pinched my self with the needle in various occasions, my fisrt time using them was horrible, so painful but the teacher said it was because it was the first time i was using them, and as time goes by ill shape them. i kept using them for 2 years and those where the worst years in ballet of my life, i went two classes a week 2 hours, it was so painful, having blisters every time, always being so tired, with muscular pain everywhere. so this June after after the recital i choose it was going to be my last ballet recital for a while.