Acts of Desperation by Megan Nolan was one of the messiest stories I have ever read, and I loved it! The story is mainly about a woman who falls for a man named Ciaran. He’s really emotionally distant, and barely interested in her. After he rejects her, instead of walking away, she throws herself into a nonexistent relationship with him fully. She changes herself to fit into his life and convinces herself that any attention from him is enough, when it really isn’t!
As their “relationship” goes on, so does she. She starts to devalue herself, stops taking care of herself, and clings to Ciaran even when it shows that he’ll never love her the way she wants. It’s frustrating, heartbreaking, and honestly, realistic. The book shows how longing for someone, and obsessing over them can turn love into self-destruction.
I wanted him to look at me and see something worth loving. I wanted to be the person he had been waiting for, the one who would make him feel safe, known, desired in a way no one else had.
This quotation represents the thoughts and emotions she felt while longing for Ciaran. This story is a representation of how love can become obsession, and how losing yourself for someone else never ends in the way you imagine.