The book My fault is about how a teenage girl and her mom move to another place to live for her mother to marry the love of his life, the guy she is marrying is rich and lives in a mansion and is very exited welcoming the mother and her daughter Noah, Noah does not like the idea of moving from Toronto to LA and living her volleyball team, best friend and boyfriend behind, Once Noah arrived she met the guy her mother was marrying and his son, her soon to be stepbrother, at first they hate each other, but little by little they start to have feeling for each other even though they say they cant stand each other., but they see imposible for them to be together because of the fact that they are step brothers.
seeing him hit me like a ton of bricks after those four days when id manage to more or less forget what had happend at the races and had tried to avoid thinking about him, and when i did think of him, i felt a strange, unpleasant sensation in my stomach.
This quotation’s meaning is that Noah is wanting to forget a mistake she made, she is trying to get past that, but at the very bottom she knows she did something wrong, she has the awareness of her mistake.