The biggest fear of growing up

Holden is afraid of growing up, he still looks for attention, he still wants to have problems like the other kids, and therefore he strongly resists growing up. More than anything else, Holden fears adulthood: sex, old age, and death.

“What I have to do, I have to catch everybody if they start to go over the cliff…That’s all I’d do all day. I’d just be the catcher in the rye and all. I know it’s crazy, but that’s the only thing I’d really like to be” (p.173).

As we can see Holden tries too hard to preserve childhood innocence. What he doesn’t understand is that part of growing up is losing that innocence, and that he’s the one headed for the fall, and that there’s nobody there to catch him.

Anne Frank

Anne Frank was a young girl who wanted to live her life like any young girl of those times. She was a lovely and she dreamed that one day she would be able to get out of this nightmare. Anne Frank was a very intelligent and she took the situation very calmly and patiently.

“If I just think of how we live here, I usually come to the conclusion that it is a paradise compared with how other Jews who are not in hiding must be living” pg.71

What I understood from this quote is that Anne Frank knows what is happening with the Jews that are in the concentration camps, and that she is living her best life compared to what they are going through.

STARGIRL by Jerry Spinelli

Leo is very sensitive because of the phrase that he said.  He says that Stargirl is unique and he was afraid to be close to her.

“We had no one to compare her to. No one to measure her against. She was unknown territory. Unsafe. We were afraid to get too close.”  (p.26)

When Leo talks about them having no one to compare her to. He means that there was no one like her. She was unique and one of a kind. There was no one else in the school who acted like that so that would mean she is unknown territory because they are not used to her.

                                                                          

personal writing may 11

I have a dog called Kokoro and he is 11 years old and he is one-eyed, and he lost his eye on vacation, when my dad took him out for a walk at night, and out of nowhere a big dog without a leash came up and started attacking my dog ​​and bit his eye and ripped it out, but my dad didn’t realize that he had ripped his eye out because it was all dark, until he got home and turned on the light and saw that his eye was hanging . So my dad called my mom to see my dog ​​and the two quickly went to look for vets but no one answered because it was already an hour too late, in the end a friend of my mom got a vet but because they took in getting a doctor they could no longer make my dog ​​recover his sight in that eye, so from that day on he remained blind.

A poem I liked and a poem a I didn’t like

The poem that I liked the most was Richard Cory, since it teaches us about something that is very true and we never pay attention and that is that there are many people who seem to have an incredible and perfect life, or appear to be happy and are always laughing. and inside they feel so empty and pretend to laugh and have a good time so that people don’t really notice how you feel, and a great tip is also to look at friends who always seem to be happy because that may not be entirely true and deep down be crying out for help and that feeling is very sad.

The poem that I did not like at all is the sestina because it is so confusing for me since the same words are always repeated at the end of each sentence, and creating one of those poems is a bit complex, and that is why I do not like that type of poems.

Living alone at 16

The Catcher in the Rye- J.D. Salinger

The character I’ve chosen to talk about is Holden. The main character in the book “the catcher in the rye”. Holden is a teen leaving alone in New York City. After he got expelled from the wealthy school Pency Prep. Our main character is set into living basically in a hotel room by himself for several time. Without his parents approval or supervision. This delivers me to talk about the characteristic I see the most in this character; Independency. Mostly because of the loneliness that surrounds him. But still I consider this is an attribute that distinguishes the main character.

“So what I decided to do, I decided I’d take a room in a hotel in New York. Some very inexpensive hotel and all. just take it easy till Wednesday. I figured my parents probably wouldn’t get old Thrumer’s letter saying I’d been given the ax till maybe Tuesday or Wednesday” (p.58)

In my opinion, the fact Holden has this quality doesn’t make it precisely correct. He is still on teen years, having a lot to learn not only academicly speaking but mostly in life path. The fact he is over independent at 16 forces him to enter the world of adults. Not precisely on the clearest path. Holden ends up making lots of bad decisions. Some of them thinking with depression and loneliness feelings. The fact he is so independent, I would say is negative and mostly for someone like Holden. He is basically a child trying to play the role of an adult.

Holden and one of his qualities

Holden, has been a pretty sad person. On many occasions in the book we can see that he has had a lot of difficulty finding happiness. This can be due to many factors, such as not being able to have many friends, or perhaps not achieving his goals. It got to the point that he started drinking, until he got really bad.

“Sally? That you?”

“Yes- stop screaming. Are you drunk?”

“Yeah. Listen. Listen, il’l come over Christmas Eve. Okay? Trimma  goddam tree for ya. Okay? Okay, hey, Sally?”

“Yes. You’re drunk. Go to bed now. Where are you? Who’s with you?”

“Nobody. Me, myself and I.” Boy I was drunk! I was even still holding onto my guts.

“Hey, Sally! You want me trimma tree for ya? Ya want me to? Huh?”

“Yes. Good night. Go home and go to bed .”

As you can see, Holden, is a person full of  qualities. But full of flaws. What he has had to live through has been very difficult, and well, I understand it. I feel like I could improve and learn from his mistakes.

Lidia

Lidia is a character that appears in the book They Both Die at the End by Adam Silvera. She is a very caring person. She used to have a boyfriend who died when she was pregnant, she’s also one of the few friends Mateo has. Lidia got out of school to take care of her daughter, even when she is scared of her future like when she said:

This is Penny’s beginning. And one day she’ll find herself on the terrible end of a Death-Cast call and it sucks how we’re all being raised to die. Yes, we live, or we’re given the chance to, at least, but sometimes living is hard and complicated because of fear.    (p. 89)

I understand her because her daughter is the only thing she has left of the person she used to love, and only thinking her daughter will die can make her feel anxious, but these days she only thinks of giving her the best life she can have.

A Good and A Bad Poem

Ah! Sun-Flower

Short and nice poem, it makes me think about those moments, when you really want something and you never give up until you find it, and despite how tired it may be, you only continue because you know that it is where you want to be, and in this poem the only thing the sunflower was looking for and wanted was to be close to the sun.

The Red Wheelbarrow

I didn´t find any sense in this poem, which has just a few words that give no sense to the poem, I read it several times and couldn´t find any message or a story behind it. In my opinion too short and with no sense or any history.

What´s next?

I can´t believe this is almost finishing this adventure that started 1 year ago, the adventure of living in Canada, I remember a was so nervous but excited at the same time of living a new experience for me, something completely new and different from what I had lived my whole live, I could say this year is gonna be one of the years, I´m gonna remember the most for all the experiences that Canada has given me, Canada has always been a dream for me, and that dream came true, sometimes a cannot realize I´m living alone, so far away for my country, but it´s something that has made me grown and mature mentally and as a person, but now, what´s next? Well when I just came in September I didn´t think about staying in Canada after Brookes, my plan always was to go back home, but now my mind has changed, should I go back home, or should I stay here? that´s a good question I´m wondering in this moment, I love Mexico, it´s my home, my country, I got a lot of reasons to go back home like my family and friends, and just for being Mexico, but as I said Canada is a dream for many people, and shouldn´t go wrong to get the opportunity to be here and get opportunities that maybe my country cannot give me.

Kate

Kate is an actress in process, she is studying acting an she´s taking some courses at her school to achieve it, Anderson, Kate´s best friend, they both are inseparable, he is gay, but she doesn´t know it, Matt is the singing coach, she is in love with him, but she doesn´t know he is in love with him too, even though they are in love of the same guy, he has been so loyal at her, but she doesn´t recognize it, she says he´s the person who knows her the best.

“He knows when I´m in my period” -Kate (p.43)

Sometimes I think we don´t value people thareally worth it, he left for Kate an opportunity of go along to a next level at acting, just to stay with her, because she wasn´t accepted at that level, I like how he is with her, he knows when she is not ok, but she doesn´t see it.

A great and a tedious poetry

“The Burial of the Dead”-T.S. Eliot

To start off, I like “The Burial of the Dead” the most. I consider this poem has a deep and hidden meaning behind what’s actually written. It begins with a monthly pattern, which eventually ends up turning into a seasonal pattern.  Through out the poem, we are able to understand the poem’s perspective is from a dead person. From the line “winter kept us warm, covering”(line 7),  we can interpret that the poem is a reference to the tombs of the deaths. Even though this is a short poem, I like it because it’s interesting and concrete.

“Sonnets from the Portuguese”- Elizabeth Barrett Browning

The poem I disliked the most is “Sonnets from the Portuguese”. I consider this poem is written in a way is very hard for non experienced readers to understand. The poem combines lots of topics like the personal experiences with the feelings of a “soul”. Ending with a line that makes unsure if the author is still alive or dead “I shall but love thee better after dead”. I consider the poem is little bit boring and confusing, not to add in some parts it’s not concrete.

 

One Loved, and One Hated Poem

 

The poetry can be very complicated, specially if do not understand or you do not feel identified with the poem. One poem that I liked is “The Road Not Taken” (pg. 26). I feel that it is a good poem written by Robert Frost that represents the decisions of the life, and in a way, it gives the message that if you take a different decision that everyone else, you will have a different life. That little difference in the decisions of your life, could make a big difference in your future, and that is why you need to be careful when you take decisions. It is a nice poem and many people can understand it or feel identified with it, that is why is one of my favorites.

It is very easy to like a poem when you understand it, and easy to hate it when you do not understand it. “The Read Wheelbarrow” (pg.29) is the clear example of a poem that I do not understand. It is very weird for me, it just does not make sense, it seems more like someone describing a scene than someone writing poetry. I am not sure if the author William Carlos Williams tries to represent something or if what makes it poetry is the way in which is written. I won’t say that I hate the poem, but I can not like something that I try to understand and I can not do it.

Famous poems Opinion

Do not go gentle into the good night

I really liked the poem because it displays how life isn’t a paragraph, rather a sentence. Basically that life is short and and you have to live it to the fullest in the lifespan of a sentence. It shocked me because although I’ve always kept in mind that my time is limited on this earth, I never really stopped to enjoy the little moments that forge me. I interpreted the line “kisses are a better fate than wisdom” as a reference to the saying that an idiot enjoys life more than a philosopher. The author wanted to show us that wisdom although its good and powerful, wont bring you any joy like a simple act of a kiss which doesn’t bring anything more than pleasure. To really live life with pleasure as it is short.

 

We are going to see the rabbit

I didn’t like this poem because I felt that it was too long and took way too much time to get to the point or at least evoke something in me. I didn’t really understand the message that it was trying to communicate and a fraction of the vocabulary confused me. It repeated the words frequently and what this would do to me is that I would get stuck on a stanza thinking the same thing and basically slow my reading. I felt that in the third quarter of the poem it was getting a bit odd and added elements that  only confused me more. They really had no relevance to the story and it wasn’t an enjoyable reading.

A Text of Liking and Disliking Poems

A poem that I’ve liked from what We’ve read is Not Waving but Drowning by Stevie Smith (1902-1971) because I think it talks too much about most people are in friendships and how some people see and treats their friends, where the friend that is always goofing, laughing and playing around, is in a bad emotional shape in a point where it is possible to say that that friend might be surrounded by sadness & depression as everyone around that friends may think that just because he is laughing he has a perfect mental state and shape.

A poem that I didn’t like was Sestina by Elizabeth Bishop (1911-1979) because I felt that the way of writing was extremely odd and analyzing the poem was a process very uncomfortable and different from what I used to do in other poems that I usually read as I also think that writing in this type of poems for communication purposes may be stressful because of how complicated it may be to express your ideas correctly in such a strict way for something that I prefer to be simpler.

Famous Poems (Personal opinion)

The poem that I like the most was “The Road Not Taken” by Robert Frost, because the author make us think about choices in life, whether to go with the everyone or go alone. Life is a journey, and this poem talks about those times in life when a important decision has to be made. The main message of this poem is that life is full of choices which will define our future.

My least favorite poem was “Stopping by Woods on a Snowy Evening” by Robert Frost, because I don’t really understand the meaning. But I guess it’s about the importance of keeping the promises he made before he died.

Poemssss

This term has been quite different from the others. Entering the world of poems is being a great experience. Is that his is a huge controversy on this issue. Many people may misjudge this type of writing, and others may think otherwise. Today I’m going to talk about the best poem I’ve read so far and which one I hate the most.

“Passing Through the Woods on a Snowy Night” by Robert Frost. This poem was one of my favorites. I like it because of the way it is written. As you can see, it looks so simple and it’s easy to understand. But if you dig deeper, you can see that the poem has a bigger meaning and an interesting plot.

“The Road Not Taken” by Robert Frost. I miss him about this. It is that I have chosen the same writer. His best poem, and his worst, for me. I feel like this poem is not as great as the other one. I find it very boring. The main reason, I’m not too sure about it. But the way he tries to express it, it’s something that bothers me. When I first read it I had a hard time understanding it and I don’t see any sense in it.

Famous Poems

The poem that I liked the most was “Not Waving but Drowning”. From Steve Smith (1902-1971). Because it was the one that I understood the meaning the most and I liked the meaning. What I understood from the poem speaks of isolation and the pain of being misunderstood and is a kind of parable about the distance between internal feelings and external appearance. And the one that I liked the least was that of “Kubla Khan” by Samuel Taylor (1772-1834). Because the truth is that I did not understand the meaning behind the poem.

Poems and more poems

This term we have been reading poems and some of them are very interesting to me. Everyone has a different opinion and we need to respect that. At this time my favorite poem is, Not Waving but Drowning by Stevie Smith, I liked it because when you read it, it looks simple but if you think about the meaning, what I understood is some people might look fine, but they’re not and they don’t know how to express their feelings or maybe ask for help.

The poem I didn’t like at all is the Sestina by Elizabeth Bishop, I kind of like that you play with the last words, but when you do those kinds of things is tough to understand the real meaning of the poem, because it can be very repetitive and also can be trying to read it.

Poem that I liked the most and poem that I didn’t like

The poem that I liked the most was “On His Blindness” by. John Milton.

What I like the most about the poem was not the poem, it was the story behind the poem. “On his blindness”, this poem speaks of Milton’s faith in God when he loses his sight. It talks about Milton’s fear, frustration, and acceptance in the process of going blind. The poem marks a turning point as Milton moves from fear of punishment to fulfillment. Without a doubt this is a poem that makes you think what would become of us if we lost our sight, how would we react? What would happen to us? etc. This is a poem that I enjoyed reading and talking about with the teacher since Jhon Milton’s life is very interesting.

The poem that I didn’t like was “The Red Wheelbarrow” by. William Charles Williams.

I didn’t like this poem because it’s too short, and what it says almost make no sense, I know it talks about the importance of agriculture and day laborers. But it took me a long time to understand what the poem is talking about. I am sure that if the poem had been longer, I would liked it since the idea is good, but it is very short.

Next Step

In 15 days is my graduation and I am very excited because I feel that it is another achievement in my life and that encourages me to set new goals, although going to university scares me a little because it is a very big step in my life and deciding that I want to study and dedicate the rest of my life is a very big decision for me, I am not ready to decide what to do with my life, one that in 2 months I will enter university, which basically is already a very short time. I’ll do the university in Mexico and I’ll do a few semesters outside of Mexico, maybe I’ll do a semester in Milan or Florence because in those places there are good fashion design courses, which is something that I like a lot, I still see yes, yes. I will go or not.

Tired

I am starting to feel tired of doing this writing assessment because I usually have something to write about which at the moment I won’t find the words or find a way to express myself, but from what I am sure about is that I am also tired of how there is a lot of people which aren’t empathic with other people or even try to show some respect to them as also lying to them in their faces, which probably can be addressed as being a hypocrite, a non-honorable and a non-trustful person.

But in the end, I also cannot comprehend how are there some people that can feel proud of telling people what someone trusted you, without respecting their privacy, and I am tired of it.

Exploring the rainy city from the USA (Seattle)

My trip to  Seattle first began in the Victoria Harbour Bay. From there I took the Victoria Clipper ferry, a well known and classic connection method between the island of Vancouver and Washington State. The ferry trip lasted no more than three hours, and it ended up arriving at the ferry port in Seattle bay. When I finally entered the USA after passing immigration check, I walked out to the street and raised my thumb asking for a taxi cab. The ferry building is located in a very transited street, so lots of taxi cabs were going through. When I finally reached my hotel, I left all my stuff in the bedroom I was given. I went for a night walk under Seattle sky. I walked through the stadiums zone and entered a little bit to the downtown area. Since everything was closed I went on my way back to the hotel. In there I asked for some Uber eats food from McDonald’s.

On my second day, I explored the city downtown. I went to iconic spots like the Public  Market or the First world Strabucks Coffee. But honestly what I liked the most was walking through downtown Seattle, and being able to explore the city freely. If I was asked, I would say Seattle is a combination between San Francisco and Chicago. The streets shapes are steep like in SF, surrounded by tall corporative buildings like the ones in the Windy City. In the afternoon, I went to probably the most iconic building in the city. The space needle a tall observation building located outside downtown.

On my third day, I went for some more exploration. The real purpose was going to a soccer match. The match took place in the Lumen Field, between my Mexican soccer team Pumas and the Seattle Sounders. Even though, Pumas got defeated, it was a great experience. To finish with, the day I came back I arrived once again to Victoria Harbour Bay. Making it a perfect rounded trip.

Time to think about universities

The time goes very fast, even more in a pandemic. It is weird to see that I do not have as much time as I though, I still remember when I entered to high school and everyone was doing comments like; “you have many years to choose a career and university” or “do not worry about that, you are too young” and right now many people tell me things like; “you still have a year to choose” or “a year is more than enough time”. if I needed sixteen years to choose a career, how am I going to choose a university in a year? I do not know what I am going to do, because I need to analyze many things. I already thought in a few universities and it is not an easy decision, specially because all of them are far from my home city. There is only one university where I can go by car, in the rest of them I would need to take a flight if a I want to see my family. Sadly, I do not only need to thing about distance, I need to think about the level of the university too, thing that is not easy, because higher the level of education, higher the amount of people that will apply and lower the probabilities of being accepted. In these moments that my mind is completely busy thinking in the university stuff, I try to relax my self and think that I still have time, because I do, but time goes fast and soon I won’t have anymore time. In conclusion; maybe is time to think about universities.

How I Met Dina

Dina and I first met at the airport before we left for Canada. My first impression of Dina was that she was a bit weird and that she was part of the LGTBQ+ community. At first, I had no interest in meeting her because she looked a bit weird. Until she asked me to go to the subway with her so I went. There we began to talk about our ex-boyfriends and  I realized that she is very cool, we have a lot of things in common, and that we could be good friends. Since that day we have been inseparable and she has become not only one of my best friends and more like a sister. I learned to never judge a book by its cover and be more open to meeting new people because you never know that weird crazy girl you meet at the airport can be your next best friend.

My dreams

Everybody sleeps, but not everybody can remember their dreams. Sometimes I do, so I’m going to write what I dreamed of last night. Everything started in my house in Mexico, I was back from Canada, with my friends and we were getting ready to go out. Then we were at Pizza hut and we ate some pizza with Obama and he told us some funny jokes, finally we went back to my house and I woke up.